Just a little about me first...then about the coming undone part....I'm a pretty upbeat positive Can-Do, "Yes" kind of girl...I'm 35, a mother of a 10 year old girl and the wife of a wonderfully supportive man. I live a quiet little life in a house on a hill with a modest car and a middle class lifestyle. It's a pretty picture....but of course....I haven't got to the really juicy part...
I love working in client services in an ad agency, the rush of the deadline, the creative process, the dramatics and energy....being a pleaser it's the perfect place for someone like me....but on Monday I hit the breaking point...I not only went to the edge and peered over, i threw myself off the cliff blindly...I think you can see where this is going....I QUIT MY JOB. Well...I can say it wasn't quite that easy or graceful. And certainly not like the "take this job and shove it" moment most people dream about.
The best way I can describe how this went down is like this: The client wasn't happy with me, I wasn't happy with the client, the agency wasn't happy with either of us...it was a love triangle gone wrong, and so I put my big girl undies on and pulled the plug on the whole affair before it got really ugly.
The end result....I'm 35 and I'm unemployed, with no prospects and bills to pay...and maybe I'm still riding on the waves of empowerment (insanity?) but I'm doing okay. I obviously know I will have to find gainful employment, but I know it's out there. I have always worked because I HAD to, not because I was particularly passionate about what I was doing. Every job I have held has lead me to something bigger and better than the previous, so today I'm confident I will hear back from the nearly dozen resumes I sent out.
Tomorrow I anticipate the glitter will wear off of this new "empowerment gown" I'm currently wearing and I will slip into a more humble dress of "hopefulness". Although not wanting to seem like an eager school girl waiting by the phone, I confess that I have checked my email today a little more than usual. and I did call my number a couple of times to make sure the phone was working....and I called my ISP to make sure the everything was working on their end.
So, finally...why AM I blogging this? Why share my failure and inner most fears with the world? I guess I have some time on my hands and need a little patch of space of my very own to vent. I also assume I'm not alone, that if I did this, there's probably lots of others who have taken drastic measures in their lives (maybe we can start a support group?) but mostly, if there are folks out there who wonder what would happen if they snapped and quit their job...well...you can tune in and either be inspired to make a change or thank goodness you still keep on keeping on, depending of course on how this all plays out.
1 comment:
the internet is amazing tool for many things. in this case: to vent.
i do it quite often on my blog/website each and everyday.
keep your head up and stay positive!
- pla3bo1 / viralmixtape.com
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